I feel like I can’t catch a breath! I’m afraid to close my eyes incase my nightmares come back. I’m numb and miserable these days. Haven’t been able to sleep or eat anything in days with the return of the nightmares and flashbacks. My cptsd is in full effect. My anxiety is terrible with multiple… Continue reading 10.13.18
Rape warning ⚠️: I just woke myself up after a horrible nightmare. The nightmare was about me waiting to pay at a cafe in a shopping center. A tall guy came up behind me and kept pressing his body against mine and me strongly asking him to back away from me. At that point… Continue reading 10.12.18 – nightmares are back
I want you to do something that will feel silly: Get in front of a mirror, your phone, tablet—whatever—and look at yourself for thirty seconds. Try it. Stare into your own face and start countin… Source: Do You See What I See? Episode 2: The Pretender
Friends, as most of you know, I get to spend an hour each week with a group of young people going through addiction recovery. Yes. Young people. I’m talking teenagers who are locked away for at least six months as they learn to overcome their addictions. I’m always humbled and honored to get this time […]… Continue reading Where was this when I was deep in my ed?!
So I just left Jennifer’s office and it really gave me a lot of anxiety and I was on the verge of crying. She’s not very pleased with me this week. We were talking about body image, restricting and how I feel about wearing a swimsuit now that the cold weather is over. She lectured… Continue reading Today’s sessions so far…
Tomorrow is the first day I’ll be seeing all of my treatment team back to back. So nervous! 😬 I’ll be starting with a session with my dietician at 1pm then my doctor who’s in the same building at 2pm and after that my therapist across the street at 3pm. Hope to get plenty of… Continue reading Not what I planned
Today’s appointment with Jennifer and Dr. Tyson went pretty well considering I had no clue that he would be in town. I forgot that they had the ED conference tomorrow. Kinda bummed I won’t be there. It was be interesting to hear them talk and listen to their presentations. I actually felt more comfortable with… Continue reading Today’s appointment
So today was going great and smoothly till I got home tonight from cfd support group. I got triggered by one of my really good friends asking me about that job interview I had last week. It made me realize that I’m not good enough to be a elementary teacher assistant. I’m sick of principals… Continue reading Trigger of the day
So I saw both my dietician and doctor today and they are still concerned about how much I’m eating and my fluid intake. Kylie, my dietician said that I lost weight this week and need to add a snack 2x a week. I also can’t be skipping anymore meals or she’ll recommend that I move… Continue reading I just can’t win!
By Kate Kole I was glued to Lady Gaga’s performance at the Super Bowl. Her dancing, her singing, her trust in suspension cables. I made a joke to my husband that she needs to come teach my fitness classes, as I’m usually winded just talking in the midst of squat jumps and mountain climbers, and […]… Continue reading Real Women Are… — Thirty On Tap